I’ve started several blogs over the years, most of them technical with huge believe that I should share and help people by describing the problems I’m encountering (read. technical ones). At some stage in my life this stopped to be important. It even started to feel difficult to be consistent which lead to another unfulfilled need.

So.

Since a while I try to simplify my life, I’ve changed my job, rethought my life aims, addressed a lot of personal and professional problems which I should have dealt with long time ago.

Now, starting with 2012 I can say that my account is clean, I know what I do. I have a aim to follow which I so desperately need. I teach myself consistency and patience still, but by now I feel much more confident with what I do. Being a really soon to be dad I get even greater productivity and motivation boost. I really feel rested and empowered. That is so new to me.

Strangely enough, my since always drive for *nix and IT in general somehow smoothed, dried a bit. I am still interested but with not such passion as I have had for the last 12 years or so. Now it just feels like a tool to be used in order to reach my goals, not a goal by itself. I discovered it long time ago that I need to have a constant aim, a master plan if you want to call it.

I did have, have now and probably will have in the feature the drive to IT but I find that after reaching some level it’s simply not complex enough. I need something more.

I found it. And the reason of keeping the blog alive (since I tend to cleanup unnecessary things in my life). For now I have one clear subject in my mind which I started to discover two years ago and it grew in my to the stage that I see that I can find myself there now more than in IT, something which I would have never thought when starting my professional life.

I am planning to write rather free articles on the subject which I so passionately study now. I feel that deep inside need for it, not to share the knowledge but rather to structurize it to myself. It might sound selfish but I guess it will find it’s readers, it always does.